Journal Entries

Journal Entry 2

            Writing goals, how peculiar although if I must I must. I particularly desire to write as much as a possibly can albeit one never really can tell when inspiration hits and an idea flashes high beams and blinds you so much that you are required to stop what ever you are doing and merely wait it out. So then it is a moment that arrives where you simply must write. That is what it is like to be creative, as you may never know when it will come again. This is also something difficult knowing that I am a college student who is required to do other work at the same time. So there is also the question of timing.

            Although, if it is goals they want then it is goals they shall get. I do not suppose that I will write a great deal during my last semester but I do hope to get at least 20 more pages entered into my story before too long at least before the year end. Maybe it would not be too much to ask if I could also write a couple more poems this year. Also I am required to fill the rest of this page with more goals. Well as this year is in its infancy I should like to start devouring as many books as I can so that my vocabulary may grow and be up for the challenge of hopefully rising above the terrible status quo. I also hope to have done more official research so that my facts may not be eschewed by laity but in fact an edification. And finally I hope for my writing to reflect all of what God would have me do.

Journal Entry 3

            Hunger is something every one experiences. But this is more than just about the clichéd sense of wealth or food but all these things, as we are indeed already hungry all the time. However, I do suppose that it is easier to compare that experience with the hunger for food. It would be much like a constant implosion of sorts. Always hungry never satisfied, your body wanting to devour itself. Slowly your mind starts to go demanding satisfaction from things that will not satisfy as it slowly careens downwards towards an abyss (which is always hungry). It never ends. Everything becomes edible in the process and your body rejects most of it. It is a most painful auto ejection of matter not fit for human consumption. It is an incredibly awful display of what is not to be eaten as it colorfully decorates your surroundings and people.

            Someone always has to clean up the mess. And soon your hunger has reached the people around you. With this it is either a chain reaction of a horrid projection and spewing of material to the world around. It covers the earth.

            There it is, a whole world covered in filth. The tragedy of humanity… Hunger and feeding on everything but what is truly needed.

Why do I write?

                  In accordance, and partially in defiance of the Creative Writing Guide, I, Cory Kutschker, must tell you why I write. I write not out of some misplaced curiosity or ill-placed desire for fame. I write because I must. To further elucidate, I must bring to mind what I am. I am an artist, I am a writer, therefore I must write. Creativity always desires an output. Furthermore I write because I am required to do so by God who put this gift in my hands to do something with it. So then It is not so much of why but what I write. Unfortunately the secular lens that Schaefer and Diamond choose quite limits the reasoning behind a writer. I am wholly required to reach out with whatever I am given to show the reality of humanity, that is show them the gospel. This is really the only reason that really matters as anything else is purely vanity. Anybody's wishes for fame should read "Ozy Mandias" by Percy Bysshe Shelley and consider that all empires eventually fall and their grandeur forgottten. So then I am sure that if someone is to read this that I have taken the creative writing DL for the betterment of writing structure and possibly to gain another eye that can maybe offer some more objectivity. It seems I nearly forgot to include quite another reason why I write.
               Its quite often that I feel that the genre of the novel and short story are slowly degenerating into something so simple it does not hardly hold any beauty. The language seems quite extinguished of any flare, fragrance and flow. It is quite unfortunate when a writer feels that they need an example of what beauty looks like in form of prose, poetry or fiction, that he the writer must go out of his age and travel backwards to seek out writers who sought to present the written word in such a way that eloquence had meaning, that is a visual and audible aesthetic. So then finally, I am writing not as though I consider myself better than other writers but to display beauty in a written aesthetic. It is the search for what writing used to be. Not only this but writing with substance. Fiction used to be such a potent tool for exploring themes regarding reality. How boring is it to merely write a story, unless you address an issue that is needing to be addressed. These are the grounds for why I must write. I do not carry any illusions that I am some salvific figure for writing but I do seek to make something worth reading.

Recent Thought

Finding Identity

Praise God for what we find in Him! Since we who know Christ are adopted into the family of God (Gal 4:5; Eph 1:5), then we have a true identity that remains firm. For in our former days we followed the world's philosophy and put our identity in that which is not solid but temporary. We had put our identity in our careers and our family. Within this was the struggle to maintain it. We even sought to improve it! In our career we sought to get to the positions of honor and yet this either led to pride or shame, which leads to death. We put our identity in our family and under such we sought to improve as we sought after approval and not always gaining it or never. We relied upon our parent's honor. Within this position was a strenuous balancing act that the whole family felt! We were shamed and sought all the more to redeem that which was lost yet always losing. All this leads to death. Yet praise God! For under Him we are identified simply as children of God, heirs to the throne (Gal 4:7). Under this title is our description found and what is required of us. We bear the family resemblance and in such we behave such a way. Through our Father we have our job. We constantly get to apprentice in our Father's work. We get to boast about our Father as every child does who has a loving father. And we are treated as His in His love (Bible) and His discipline (Heb 12). Praise God for our true identity!

If any wisdom and truth is found in this praise God. For through the Holy Spirit is granted all ability and wisdom.

Recent thought

REGARDING ORIGINALITY

A Personal Reflection

Originality it seems is one of the primary idols of the creative world. Artists seek to create that which is original and yet are pursuing the absurd. They chase after that which is beyond their grasp. For what is left which has not already been accomplished? And even further Artists, fixed on the world, pursue fame. It is an exhausting task, the pursuit of the original, and leaves a man wearied and often without hope. Originality in the Art world is a direct function of fame. If fame is accomplished it drains a man as would a parasite and then moves on to another equally naïve pursuer.

Where does originality exist? Originality as it would seem exists in the one idea, which has not primarily been expressed. Yet how is this viewed in the Post Modern world with a relativistic philosophy? The question of this age is “What is art?” This question in itself is synonymous with “what is original?” Many have moved from the real to the rearranged, from the normal to the aberrant, from the created to the distorted. I would suggest that the only originality that can be attested to is purely ontological. True originality is that which proceeds from the original. An original creation proceeds from an original creation.[1] In so much as we are original creations of God, what proceeds from us is deemed as original in essence. Originality is therefore not to be pursued, rather to be considered as a function of worship. As an original creation it is to be made beautiful and/or true in such a manner that it brings glory to the one true God.

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[1]This is an agreement to a friend’s idea, which in turn was acquired from the Holy Spirit, from whom all revelation and wisdom is made apparent. (I shall make this as a declaration of accountability from now on)

Changes to my art site

Dear readers,

I wish to inform you of the change that I have made to my art site. There is now a poetry section, in which I have placed much of my old poetry. As with my art, my poetry changed substantially after God came into the picture far more (no pun intended). Therefore some of it may be a little foreboding, intense and seeking purpose. I shall include some more in a few days once I get them on my computer and then I can copy and paste them onto the site.

http://thinkerproductions.shawwebspace.ca

Recent Thoughts...

Regarding the Westminster Confession the shorter catechism:

"The chief end of man is to glorify God" There is plenty of scriptural support for this statement.
(Psalm 86:9, Isaiah 60:21, Rom. 11:36, I Cor. 6:20, 10:31, Eph 1:4-6, 12 Just to name some as there are probably more)

How do we do this?One way, We show our true character, (that is what is restored through Christ) our likeness to Him so that they may experience Him, praise Him and give Him glory. We behave like our family in God, showing good character according to the Scriptures, and proclaiming the Gospel that is the good news of Jesus Christ.

Next thought

Gen 1&2

Think about the simplicity that obedience brings. Adam & Eve had everything they needed. All they were required to do is to give glory to God and obey Him.

Through sin arose complication.

Recent Thoughts

There is a statement which I have come to realize as rather inaccurate: "life is not fair."
This staggering statement seems to find its way into the mouths of many... even those of the faith.

life is not fair? on the contrary, it is perfectly fair. This "jewel" of a statement contradicts two attributes of our Father, perfect justice and omnipotence. However, it is not terribly surprising that we find this on the mouths of Christians here in the west, for we have considered ourselves in control. Not only this but, for those outside of Him who are in continual sin death and or pain is their judgement and consequence. For us it is our discipline and consequence.

Life is perfectly fair as God is the authority not us.


Thought 2

On the holiness of God:

I have mentioned before that one question that should fix our struggles with God is how big is (y)our God?

I would like to challenge this notion:

The question, 'How big is your God?' is somewhat if not completely flawed. First of all when we say this we maintain that size or measure is the issue at hand. We can know that our God is without a doubt consistent in size eternally and cannot be measured. This is where the real flaw is. Our doubt in His capabilities is not a question in measure. For we cannot conceive of His size or capability. So perhaps our real question lies with what or whom do we put our trust in? The concept of god is not terribly difficult as this involves a being simply having a spiritual control. A conception of God (note the uppercase 'g') is not easily defined in fact can not be defined except with Himself (Exod 3:14). We can give mere descriptions of Him such as omnipotence and omniscience. However, once we do this we get the funny feeling that we have an understanding of Him. We have all of our omni's in a row and we are ready to conceive Him. Or let us consider something else. In Scripture we read that God commands that no one should ever create an image of Him (Exod 20:4, Isa 40:18). God is not something to be constructed. And even more the very word God, or YHWH (and I do not use that word lightly) is indicative of what we are dealing with. So to conclude, if we are not having trust in Him, then we need to ask one of two questions. How big (small) is your god? or maybe even more appropriate a question who is your god?

(just this question alone opens up a whole new can of exegetical beans)